Where should I live?

Here are the options: Go back to Spokane Washington to be with my alcoholic boyfriend that hit me at my parents house on Christmas. Should I keep following him? He has seen me at my worst and always stuck by my side. He is like my family and my special someone. I can’t picture myself growing old with anyone else. I feel like either we grow old together or maybe I don’t grow old at all. Bryan is life. Substances are death.

Go back to Spokane in March when Dave gets out of prison and do crystal meth again.

Or stay here in Chicago and get a job and make a new life for myself.

Or I can go to California to live with my girl that is friend girl Amanda. Go to Cali and start over there?

Or go volunteer abroad and leave for 6 or 9 months to build schools in some jungle land.

What should I do?