I lost my Mom three years ago; we were very close. My sister, who is also one of my best friends is going downhill (health-wise, and mentally), and I don’t have that closeness with her anymore. I’m afraid that the way that she is going, she may not make it (it’s a very complicated issue). So, I could lose another person that I love. The rest of my family have drifted apart since my Mom died.

I have loving friends and I have an amazing girlfriend. I know that she loves me very much. There really is no reason to question that. I also should add that I have been depressed for awhile and just started getting help (my 3rd session is next Tuesday). Anyway, back to my girlfriend. I have been feeling anxious the past two weeks. It comes out of nowhere and I know that it’s just my head, but, I can’t make it stop. I worry that she is going to want to leave me. The last two nights I have been having nightmares about it. Like I said, it’s not rational, I know, but, I can’t help but feel this way. I’m doing my best to push it out of my mind. I wonder if it’s because the holidays are coming up…

I don’t want to lose anymore people, and usually, I have it all together, but, right now I feel scared.

What should I do?

Topics: relationships, love, family, depression, security, anxiety, emotions, loss