Yes. To the point where sometimes I have no idea what my face looks like or what expression it’s making, because I’m so often not in it.
For me it’s because with many people in my life, my emotions don’t matter, are wrong, inappropriate, in the way of truth, etc. For others, they matter too much and get blown out of proportion. And with some people, it’s somehow both at the same time. I don’t feel safe expressing them, with anyone, really.
Sometimes they start to leak out… and then everything gets sticky. Not that hiding all of them is healthy or winding up working out for me, but it’s the only option I’m comfortable with.
When I’m in control of my expression, I’ve only ever known one person to be able to see through my poker face. And they were a childhood friend I hardly see anymore, if at all.