I am really not happy in my house. I don’t like the layout or the location or the property or the feeling the house gives me. I don’t know how to explain this feeling other than to say it is something along the lines of unease and waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Since moving here, I have been a complete disaster of a housekeeper and stay-at-home mom and wife. Laundry does not get done, there is clutter everywhere, I have been cooking much less even though I used to love cooking and trying out new recipes. I have never been super tidy, but this is a new low for me and it is hard on my marriage and my self-esteem/depression.

Do you think my feelings about the house could be contributing to the issue? I am not trying to blame the house – that would be ridiculous. I know I should be able to push through and get things done anyway, but I just can’t seem to do it. All I have thought about for the last 2½ years is the day we’ll be able to get the hell out of here. I knew I hated it the second I walked in the house for the inspection.

Topics: depression, marriage, housekeeping, houses, feelings, wives, surrounding