From a girl that had the exact same thing happen to her this is what I’m going to say to you. for every month you were together allow one day to wallow in your sorrows, for me I got 20 days. After that, you need to hold your head high and move on with life. And when I say allow yourself 20 days, I mean a little bit of time each day, not the entire day. You need to become productive – some of my best and move moving paintings that sold for the most money were created during those 20 days for me and I am proud of what I learned not about what I was with him but what I had to potential to become.
To me, the best form of expressing anger is applying it to a page, for me it is acryllic and spray paint that work the best but use whatever brings you joy – it could be painting or drawing or writing or even doing a math problem but find a way to express yourself through your troubles and you will create something wonderful. It may not become something that you can sell but keep whatever you produce as a reminder of where you were and how far you’ve come.
Next I suggest you talk to people that are close to you and trustworthy, if you have mental problems (which i also had) this blow is a devestating one and I understand. This is why you need to get all the feelings out of you.
Contrary to what everyone else on here says, I am saying DO NOT look at all the pictures and memories (THROW THEM AWAY!!!) and DO NOT lay in bed because these are surefire ways to make those 20 days hell for you. Keep what you have to and throw everything else away.
The best part about your situation is that you have learned a great deal in how to deal with a relationship. DO NOT fall quickly and DO NOT fall hard for a boy – it leads to heartbreak. DO NOT give yourself to a boy unless you are 100% about him.
The hardest part about your situation is that he was your first boyfriend. Don’t allow what this boy has done to you to create a wall for your future relationships. There are boys out there that will prove to you that you are special and beautiful. There are boys out there that are nothing like the boy that just walked out of your life and those boys are worth a hell of a lot more. Let them in, no too quickly, but let them in because they are the ones that will show you love and what you deserve and every girl in the world deserves to feel like a princess.