Hahaha this thread is fabulous!
I’m feeling pretty positive lately, but the biggest things nagging at the back of my brain are worries about my upcoming surgery and worries about going back to school.
The surgery is worrisome because I’ve actually grown quite accustomed to my ostomy. For a long time I had hated it and couldn’t wait to get rid of it, but these days I realize that I’m actually feeling really good for once and can do everything I want to do. It’s gonna be scary, after finally getting to that place, to tempt fate by going through another surgery. I’m worried I’m going to feel all crampy and awful again like I did before I got the ostomy. But I’m staying as optimistic as I can!
As for school, I’ve missed it a ton and have been dying to go back this whole time, but I’m actually pretty nervous about going back. The fucking housing department says they can’t hold a room open for me because they’re convinced I’m going to renege and tell them I’m not coming back after all. I understand that other people who are in more stable situations and who appear more reliable need those rooms, but I’m paying this institution more money per year than I even care to think about, and I think they should be able to reserve a room for me considering that they are very aware of my circumstances. I really, really, really don’t want to have a roommate when I first go back. My guts have been rearranged, I have a brand new body to get used to, and I need my goddamned privacy while I deal with all that. I’m also having some more generalized anxiety about returning to school, as I know college life is very fast paced and stressful and I’m SO not used to that these days. I’ve been lazing around my house for more months than I care to think about and that is going to be such a shock to my system. To echo others here, Aaaauuuuuuggggggghhhhhhhh!