@Kardamom Thanks you. I’m 19 and yes I am immature in many ways. If you think that photo is sexually “provavactive” then that’s a problem you should seek help for.
Nobody in my family ever abused me but thanks for wondering. If they did I would say it on fluther since I don’t hide anything here. I wouldn’t go around talking about those things in real life. I ask about sexual things because I am writing a screenplay, and it really helps to see what people here think since most people here are very interesting. @FutureMemory @Kardamom I’m old enough and I am leaving in 5 days… I don’t think I need a therapist since I’m moving out. I always thought we were a normal family though. I have seen other people and their families… They seemed really messed up compared to mine. I know my mother is not normal but that made me think of the whole human beings as idiots that I don’t want to deal with. She can be an angel, but then she has this other side that I mentioned. We hug and kiss everyday. But then she cares about what people think a lot. She is a hard to understand person. Maybe it is because of her past… Her parents didn’t even have money to buy food, her father always abused her and her mother always told her that her father is the worst person ever. Then she studied nonstop, different than everyone around her. She won the best school in Europe for law and graduated from there, now I am going to study in US because of her hard work all her life.
Yesterday I was really angry but right now I think I really should learn to do what @linguaphile said. My brother does that perfectly (he is 30 now) and it seems like they have a nice, calm relationship after all.
Well I wish I could change the past but I can’t. Beating up a defend less daughter is really, really wrong and can’t believe it. My dad also used to hit me, and for the past 2 years he has never hit me, and he is being extremely nice to me. I love my parents in general but I don’t get along with them and I wouldn’t live with my mother forever if I had a choice.
You know what I realized just yesterday, all my life, I was not aloud to make mistakes. Even small ones like cutting my eyebrows. It was reacted immediately. I don’t remember one time making a mistake and my parents saying its okay and showing the other way “nicely”.