I never make the first move, or if I do it’s extremely rare, and usually because action needs to be taken for something important. People always have to make the first move with me, and several times, I still don’t respond much, and they have to keep at it. Some do, some don’t. I will warm up eventually, but it can take a long time.
I really don’t know why I’m like this, and sometimes it pisses me off. I am solitary and don’t hang out with people much, but I’m not a hermit either. People usually get put off by this, understandably, and it makes me feel like shit lol.
I got problems with shyness though, and it was way worse when I was younger. Having had mostly all public oriented jobs since my late teens has really helped me to improve on this, but some yet remains.
All this isn’t a non trust thing, or some emo goth shit though. In fact, I trust people way too easily, at least ones I know. So I denno what it is, it’s like a natural thing that keeps happening, no matter how many times I decide it won’t. I’m all like, kay today I’ll just talk to people and be all friendly, but then the same old shit just keeps happening lol.