I get the feeling that I don’t belong in church, or around most people, so because of my social incapacity from my childhood, I don’t feel that I should tell people that I want to be a Christian. However, I was literally going paralyzed for over a year when a woman told me that “all she could do was pray for me” and it got better… so I really, really, want to do something in return but obviously I’m too screwed up from my childhood and am a total failure so what do I do?