I have given up trying, for the most part. I am learning to be happy doing what I do. Trying to do things that are impossible makes me want to die and I don’t want to die. It’s better to stop trying and instead learn to appreciate what I am able to do. If I can do this, it may turn out that I do quite a lot. A lot more than I thought I did when I felt like I had to do everything.
When I had to do everything, I ended up doing nothing. Doing nothing nearly killed me. Now that I am learning not to do everything, I still end up doing nothing, only in this case, doing nothing is bliss. Doing nothing is the most satisfying spiritual practice I have ever experienced. And it is surprising how much can be accomplished while doing nothing.
Lord save me from ever trying to do anything again. Trying is the death of accomplishment. Seems to me that as soon as you stop trying, you can do just about anything.