@downtide See, that is where it gets tricky. For me when I was unhealthy I felt less free. I complained about the loss of freedom more than anything. I also was never very happy when I was in pain every day for years. I had things I could enjoy, but overall I hated my situation, was pretty sad about it. I had love, but it strained my marriage a lot, and even my family, the interaction with family was altered a little.
There is an old question, if you have to choose, do you choose mental illness of physical illness? Even when I was young I used to say mental, because when a person is physically ill, they usually wind up having a mental component with it anyway.
I’m not saying your answer is wrng for you, just thought I would explain my own answer in comparison to yours.