Welcome to Fluther also… but what should you do? It has been over for almost 10 years. Let it go. I really do get it. I was absolutely crazy about a guy, a very long time ago, longer than 8 or 9 years, and it didn’t work out but I still dream about him occasionally. It was a dream, nothing more. It was a relationship that mattered to you and resides in your mind, and heart too, still, but it is over. It was just a dream. Accept that the memory, experience, history of that relationship will probably always be a part of you and just deal with that and keep on truckin’ and moving forward and keeping an eye on what is right in front of you and further down the road. I don’t think anyone should spend too much time looking in their rear view mirror. It’s normal and even good, to do it occasionally, but not do do too much.