My cross to bear is inheriting my dads 40 lb. weight struggles. lol
If I don’t pay close attention I’ll put on the lbs. easily. I HATE having to watch every bite of food I put in my mouth, a curse it is, although nothing tastes as good as thin feels, yeah, I just keep telling myself that haha
Everyone tells me I am too nice to her and let myself get screwed, but the fact is, she has my children, and until they are all in college, I want her to be doing well.
My digestion. I can’t eat most of the stuff I love, it’s hard to eat enough to stay healthy, I hurt a lot sometimes, and it interferes with my sex life. I must have pissed off my endosymbionts at some point, because they are really not holding up their end of the bargain.
My youngest son keeps picking friends/wives who are very predatory. Instead of a partner, he ends up with women who are argumentative, greedy and high maintenance.
@harple That makes a lot of sense!
I don’t know how, but I thought it had something to do with the animal, a bear. Like when we became animale-like. lol.
@tups: Your “cross to bear”, aside from being a reference to the crucifixtion of Jesus, speaks of your major obstacles or challenges in life. They are often difficult or impossible to overcome. It’s something that dogs you.
Everything I, and others, do or say haunt me. It’s hard for me to forgive any wrong (including my own) because I find it extremely hard to forget them. So from that, I developed a peculiar desire for both company and isolation; to be cared for and to be resented, hated; to be able to grow to love myself and to continue hating myself. And from that grew my… mutually destructive tendencies.