First i’d like to say, I’m not gay hahh, but every year I’m “attracted” or just want to be good friends with a girl. Last year I met a bad *** chick, but I eventually realized she’s into the wrong ****. Weed, partying, so I didn’t really hang out with her out of school. We still became close, but she knew I didn’t do that stuff, so she never asked me to. One day I decided if she ever asked me to chill, I seriously would and I would smoke and do whatever. When I got over that feeling of her being my reason to be happy to go to school and happy to text and all that, I realized how stupid I was for ever thinking it was okay for me to party with her. I met another girl this year and I was like omg she’s so cool. I found out she’s very similar to the girl from last year in relation to her “hobbies” haha and I really want to be close, but we can’t if she does that stuff. She’s 2 years older btw. But right now, I’m under that “spell” that I’ll smoke with her because she’s that cool to me. It’s hard to explain, but I don’t want to make a mistake and regret it later. What should I do? Lol I sound so stupid and pathetic, but does anyone know what’s going on with me? Why does this always happen? Am I just drawn to kids that do stuff like this?

Topics: friends, relationships, psychology, drinking, smoking