I used to always rein them in. I kind of have been using fluther as a place to just see what I really think. So I write and post it without allowing myself to stop anything. Whatever I think, I have to say it. It’s kind of like building courage to say things.
Sometimes I get into trouble, but it isn’t as bad as I thought it would be. People seem much more accepting of my eccentricities than I expected. This has actually given me the courage to say more in real life. I dont’ say everything, of course, but it has opened a few conversations that never would have happened otherwise.
I’ve also been allowing myself to know what I know. So I can tell when someone is mentally ill now. In the past, I would never have said anything. I’ve been finding ways to check out this knowledge without taking huge risks, and have discovered that my sense is accurate.
These intuitions or impulses have been helpful to me, and I’m allowing myself to trust them more. Hardly taking big risks, I guess. I am testing it fairly thoroughly. But going with my impulses has not been something I’ve done in the past, so it is kind of nice to be able to allow myself to trust them, and use them more.