Would you like to do it to disappear and reinvent yourself?
I am about to do just that. Just got a job in another country. Besides my parents, only 2 other people know about this. I’m severing the rest of my contacts, at least for the time being, till I have achieved all I am setting out to achieve. I am also rethinking myself, who I want to be, what I want to do with the rest of my life. It’s scary and exhilirating at the same time ;-)
I want to be a different person when I get there (come middle of March), and changing old habits presents a challenge. Small steps. They say “triggers” are crucial in habits staying the way they are, so I’m out to destroy the old ones and create new triggers, new habits. Why am I doing this? First of all because I can, due to this opportunity that had opened itself up for me now. Secondly, a lot of my friendships seem to have gone toxic beyond the point where I feel like I want to fix them – or they were always this way but I didn’t see it earlier.
Most of all I see how my current lifestyle, personality, habits are making me forgo my dreams, and waste my life on trivia. I need to remake myself to follow through on my goals. You’re lucky I’ve retained some anonymity on here or I’d be leaving all of you here, too – and what a tragedy for you that would be! :D All in all I’ve got a lot of work to do. And it’s the hardest kind – working on yourself. Tips welcome :P
I know this sounds like a load of BS. That I’ll give it a week and forget about it. Hell I have doubts if I have the willpower to pull this off. Then again I have felt like this before, and I did implement similar changes in my life, if on a smaller scale. I can do this. I think I can do this. <gulp>