@XOIIO I found mine on Fluther. No lie.
Sometimes meatspace is overrated. People here are real as well. They stick by me through my lows, and I for one will be there for you, too.
I find it helpful to have a distraction. Something you can do where you’re not thinking about what you’re feeling, or whether you’re capable of feeling anything at all. I paint. I’m not particularly good at it, but I find the motions comforting. And then when you’re done there’s something there, something you can look at and see the results of your actions. Instant gratification.
Here are some idle-work ideas:
Furniture refinishing: I do this, too. Best part? Almost free. Find throwaway wood furniture on the side of the road, take a scraper and some sandpaper to it (this can take as long as you need it to), then hit it with a new coat of poly or paint it if you prefer. If you’re having a really bad day, sand down a table with an orbital sander. Power tools for the win.
Cooking: Baking preferably. Bread is good because you get to beat the shit out of it a couple of times. And then you get to eat it. And there’s nothing in the world quite so delicious as warm, fresh bread you made yourself.
Sometimes, it’s nice to have something that requires a good deal of close focus. Hand sewing, jewelry making, beading (I don’t know what your gender identity is, but I know some very manly men who make fabulous Native American style beaded artwork that blows my mind-hole.) Leatherwork (specifically leather carving and stamping) is a good one. Wood burning (You can get a craft wood burner for $10 at any arts and crafts store).
Sometimes staring at a glowing screen just isn’t enough, y’know?