It’s been like this since I got out of the hospital last November. It’s crazy. I get ragingly hungry, to the point I’m almost desperate and it’s NEVER been like that before. Before I could just ignore it for a bit, and sometimes it would just go away for a few hours. Now, even when I eat, I’m still hungry. I know what should fill me up, and it isn’t happening anymore. I’ve eaten a lot today…an egg McMuffin, and sausage and cheese biscuit for breakfast, and I just had a chicken sandwich from Wendy’s for lunch. Before I could hardly finish those big sandwiches. I ate the whole thing…and I still feel hungry. But the weird thing is, at that point, when I know I should feel satiated from past experience, I still feel hungry, but don’t necessarily want to eat.

It’s like…I’m full, but my stomach isn’t sending the message to my brain. What is up with this?

No, I haven’t gained weight because I’ve been so aware of this and I refuse to give in to the temptation to snack…but it wouldn’t do any good anyway.

The only time it seems to ease up is if I eat some chocolate, or drink some chocolate milk.

I’ve almost forgotten what it even feels like to feel full.