It’s my job…they just keep demanding more and more from me…and this has been going on for months. We are short-staffed, and they literally are now asking me to do the job of two teachers…and only giving me a small stipend over my assistant teacher pay. For a while I was fine…I just kept coming up with ways to be more efficient, but now I have literally run up against a wall.
It’s affecting everything I do. I don’t sleep well any more…and, sorry @Jeruba, but I can’t stand to be around anybody once I leave work. I just want to go home and shut myself in away from everybody. My cats are the only “people” whose presence I can stand. Today I had to go over my mom’s and mow the lawn after work…and even during dinner I sat in a separate room in the near dark, because I couldn’t bear talking to anybody. I thought if my dad said one wrong thing to me I would explode. I barely go to church any more…it’s too much effort. My choir director doesn’t understand why I don’t feel like singing any more (since last spring).
Even my class is no joy to me this semester, and I usually love learning, but right now it’s too much. I’m supposed to transfer to a four-year school in the spring, and I haven’t even started page 1 of the application. I have no money saved up, and no vacation time, so I don’t see how I can take off (even if they would allow me to. It’s just me paying the bills. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I feel like I have nobody I can talk to.