Periodically, I get to the point where I feel the need to free myself from that which I use to clutter my sense of self and identity.
I have always had beautiful, thick, healthy hair, and it has been a part of my ‘charisma’ & reputation for a very long time. As a result of the depth of my process, two days ago I shaved my head. First, I had to cut off a thick braid almost 2 feet long. That inspired a tear or two, as my hair was kind of like an old friend.
I had done this before about 16 years ago. However, that was due to an unfortunate experience at the salon. My hair was down to my butt then, as it was two days ago.
So now I am just luxuriating in my nakedness. I am feeling the sensations of air wafting over my bare head. When anyone touches my head, a tingling goes through my whole body.
I am free from all I felt it contributed to how I express in the world. Its awesome. I was so ready.
Now I get to make use of my hat collection. I am consciousness. This body is a vehicle. Sometimes, it is good to connect with that on a very deep level. I feel like a zen monk! Lol.
I will let it grow to be the color it wants to be. But it will be good to act out different scenarios of myself. Life is change. Identity is change. How we remain vital is breaking away from self created imprisonment and kicking away our crutches at times.
So that has been interesting.