I just replied to your rebound comment on another thread so I am responding to your above statement at the same time. I’m just going to be blunt.
The treatment of a man as you describe immediately above is definitely being a tease and sending mixed signals. It is rude and immature, and I’m not surprised that the relationship fizzles after they get the cookie. If a guy your age believes there is a possibility for sex (of any kind) he will put up with an awful lot from a girl whether he likes her or not.
No one, men and women alike, appreciates having their heads intentionally fucked with, which is what you are doing because history has shown us that you are going to spend the night with anyone that pays you any attention. Hell, you even stayed the night with a drugged-out guy you didn’t even like.
I can’t tell you what your motives are. Maybe feeling chased makes you feel good so you jerk these guy’s heads around and act like you’re in a soap opera. It’s really a turn-off, even to just read your above statement. It’s dishonest and ugly. You will not ever catch a quality guy playing games. You can call it “not letting yourself go” all you want. What you described as your behavior above (we’re friends and then kissing, I don’t like you, no I do) is not the same paradox that @Paradox25 explained above. What he described is being coy and having to play hard to get. You are easy to get, as long as a guy allows himself the frustrating evening of head games. Your current tactics, regardless of whatever is going on genuinely in your head, will not earn you anything more than a reputation.
If you are confused as to whether you like a guy or not then keep your thoughts to yourself and slow the fuck down. It baffles me that you behave as you stated above. I believe that you are actually too immature to be dating at all.