Love, but that was a stupid move at the time and I sometimes kick myself for not grasping onto a goal that’d have been a bit more concrete since I almost fell right back into that spot of despair when my friends and my significant other all turned away.
On the bright side, the experience taught me that hope has just as much potential for destruction as it does for construction and that hope really is the first step on the road to despair. And so I learned to stop hope from ever arising again within me. And now that pit of despair is a million miles away.
Also I learned who my friends really are.