Every time I think of something, it makes me wonder what would’ve changed as a consequence. I believe a lot of things tie in. Drop a bad friend too early, and maybe it would’ve led to other friends and I might never have met my husband. I don’t know if we are born with our destiny or if we are constantly directing our destiny through cause and effect.
Even if everything could stay the same and it not affect anything, then I wish I had quit smoking permanently the first time I quit, when I was pregnant. I started back up after I gave birth. But who knows. Maybe I would’ve eaten myself to a heart attack. I was a nervous wreck when my son was born. I went practically 3 months without sleep, because he was colic.