I’m 26 and I’ve been suffering from S.A.D and Depression for about 6+ yrs now. It has crippled my social life, love life, & fianancial life.

1— It’s prevented me from going after my dreams of being a pro soccer player ( really could have made it) still have the talent but I’m a bit old.

2— Can’t tell you how many relationships it’s prevented me from having. So many times girls have stared at me waiting for me to make the move just for me to look away and ignore them. I often cancel invites to hang out with friends.

3— I have a job mainly due to the help of my old college professor. I want to go out and look for a better one with benefits but I’m just so scared and timid. Because of that I’m still living with my parents. I can barely save up money. Especially living in NYC. So expensive here. When ever I’m at work, I’m always tired and it’s really hard to concentrate. Often effecting my work. I work as a graphic designer. The job I have is more production which I’m use to. I’m more advertising. So its really hard to get use to it.

4— I’ve developed a bad eye strain & facial twitch. Its really hard to control especially when I’m in public. I always have panic attacks especially when people stare. It’s hard to get help since people cant fully understand til they’ve been through it. They often confuse it with being shy.

I’m at a point in my life that I feel like giving up. I have no hope or faith that things will get better. I’m just lost, confused and hopeless.

Topics: life, lost, depression, anxiety, thinking, thoughts, social anxiety, depressed, sad