Could fear or anxiety be a factor? You told us that you have an anxiety attack when you leave your apartment to go to the corner grocery. I can see how this could be a major impediment to achieving your goals.
Instead of coming up with excuses for not doing anything (a subject of several of your posts),DO SOMETHING! Make a list of things you would like to accomplish. They can be about anything – socializing, getting a job, education, etc. Choose one. Start with something you think is relatively easy. Make an outline of what you would need to do to attain it and determine if it is feasible, doing a little research if necessary. If it is not doable, cross it off the list and choose another goal. When you find one that is doable, start working on it.