I feel like I understand now that my ex wife actually get’s off on being sneaky and being bad and humiliating people.
There were a lot of signs of this throughout our 15 years together.
She’s just one of those people that would put others down or get excited when there’s a fight because she seem’s to want to see someone get hurt.
She was beyond me in the bedroom too, always wanted to be tied up, whipped etc.
I just wanted to love her???
I didn’t see what was wrong with being good to each other.
I get that there’s an excitement about being bad together, I guess?
Only she was cheating and being bad without me too and didn’t care if I got hurt.
Anyway, now that I’m moving on from her in hopes of finding true love I can’t help but feel like before I go maybe I should with as much enthusiasm and effort as possible try to hook up with someone she knows like a girlfriend or aquaintance or just someone within her circle of friends on Facebook so it will get around.
Just to say “How does that feel?”
Kinda like a goodbye present for her. ; )
Is it normal to consider that or am I just looking for trouble now?