Around the age of 25 I claim to the conclusion I was transgender but kept it a secret. I struggled for years to understand what was up with me. I was never in a relationship. I had only a small group of friends. I struggled to hold down jobs. So I am now 31, I still live with my dad and was diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder. When I tell therapist and or doctors I think I am transgender the first thing they ask me is do you were girls clothes? I try to explain that when I was around the ages of 4–5 I did in fact were girls clothes but I live in a conservative house hold so by the time I was in the first grade this was not aloud. I also do not have the money to go out and buy a whole new wardrobe. I wouldn’t want to were a dress or anything like that while I still had a beard. I was also always reminded by relatives and other kids that I was a boy. So by the time I was a teenager was I very anti social and hid in my room a lot and played video games. Sometimes I played and still play mostly female characters. I try to explain that although I do not identify as religious I came to a conclusion that if I do have a soul or a spirit it was a female. Most of the doctors and therapists I talked to either do not comment about it or try to tell me they don’t think I am trans but fail tell me what I am if not trans..