I used to play the flute classically (I’m so rusty now that I have to re-teach myself), and I came to learn that I love making music with other people. It’s never as satisfying if I’m playing by myself as it is when I’m in the center of the sound, contributing one part to the whole.
I also used to sing with an a capella group and I really enjoy drum circles, not that I’ve done one in a really long time, but it’s the same feeling of getting lost in the middle of the sound, one part to the whole.
The feeling I get when I’m part of music making like this is amazing.. it’s joy, euphoria, beauty.. I love the intensity of being in the middle of the sound. I love that each individual part is one thing by itself, but something so much more amazing when combined. It kind of gets me high, I don’t know how else to explain it.
These days, I content myself to play with music by making mixes and such. :)