So in a previous question I told of how a friend of mine kissed me, told me she liked me, and then told everyone I was a dyke.
She apologised a day or so later n told the whole school she liked me back. We ignored this for a while after but yesterday, at a party, we talked about what happened and she said she reacted so horribly because she found out that I liked her from a mutual friend and she panicked because the idea pleased her a little. And that she wanted to be with me and the question was whether I would run away. I told her absolutely not. She was leaning in for a kiss but we both had just eaten so I jokingly pulled away (I had garlic breath haha). I told her so. And she laughed and just kissed me on the cheek and told me to wait until later. And I know its futile but I can’t stop thinking about it. Should I have kissed her?
Also I’m grinning constantly which is normal, but at the same time I’m also nervous and a little scared. What if things don’t work out? To boot she’s a close friend and I don’t want to lose her. Also she constantly keeps dropping hints that we don’t have to tell either of our parents. That our “love” is only temporary. I know that’s true but it worries me even more for some reason.
Moreover she is far more popular than I am, and we were talking about the party today when I realized how left out I feel when she talks about how much everyone likes her. Would that be a potential problem?
Furthermore, she seems to be skirting around the fact that anything even happened at the party. I dropped some hints but she didn’t pick them up. I tried being direct but she changed the topic. Should I just chalk this down to her getting used to the idea?
I know this sounds juvenile but this is the first I’ve ever even come close to a relationship,and I would really like some advice. I’m sorry that this question asks so many things and that it’s so long.