It has been my experience that if you hate mathematics or have a mathematics disability, you are stuck with it. I hated it in first grade, and at some point in grade school I was diagnosed with a math disability called dyscalculia. When I left high school, I could not even do long division.After high school I did eventually make it up to calculous level, but that’s where I dropped out. There were people far less successful than me academically who could get it. I could not keep track of what order to do what in.
I never had problems with fractions or short division and usually did okay with the simple stuff, but the rest, especially everything beyond factoring, was near impossible.