@RedDeerGuy1 You just need to make peace with yourself. If you have not changed by this age you are not going to. The window for a typical college then career path has closed. You’re middle aged now so you need to look past that. Trade school may still be ok provided you do something that is in such demand that people would be willing to hire someone in their 40’s with no work experience. That’s not necessarily what you should to though. What you should do depends on your needs, happiness and your capabilities. Since your basic needs are being taken care of without much/any effort on your part you lack the motivation to change anything. You’ve settled. It’s long past time to own that.
What you can do is not always again what you should do. What makes you happy? I don’t care how mundane or unimpressive it may be. Be honest, really, be honest. Think of a few things and report back. If you can do that we’ll certainly help by making suggestions.
I think I speak for all of Fluther that we are all tired of entertaining your fantasies. You have been saying things and doing nothing about them for over a decade now. For the love of God do something while there is still a little time left before you are elderly.