Searching to find one’s identity often involves a soul-searching of sorts, to define one’s own sexuality. In some shape or other, all humans have to come to terms with this in their maturation.
Realize that in today’s society, with all the pressures of gender and roles, there are a lot of misconceptions about what society expects and what the reality is…that we are all human, and that what matters is that you are happy with being you.
You can at least have comfort in the fact that you’re self aware, and that you are in touch with your feelings; there are many people who go through life suppressing their feelings about their identity, causing great damage to their self-esteem, that eventually creates great problems for them down the line.
Research this with a healthy and productive attitude; it may help to look up some literature that may give some clarity to your circumstance, or maybe talk to someone with similar issues. With a little more investigation, you may find that there are support groups out there (online, face-to-face) to which you might avail yourself.
Someone knowledgeable in the health industry may also be able to point you in the right direction (family doctor for example).
Good luck-never feel bad for feeling the way you do…it’s a natural part of life and self-awareness, and those who accept it and embrace their individuality are often the ones that come out ahead…