Hey, I have no idea how this works or where I was supposed to go to ask for advice but I’m gonna try this. Just incase it’s a sensitive topic for anyone, this post mentions suicide. So a few months ago I attempted after a really complicated situation with sexual harassment and such (not really relevant here), but after I attempted and failed word spread around really fast. All the teachers and staff at my school and most parents in town know what I did. My family has been very understanding and I have gotten the help I need. Now that I’m stable mentally and physically I’ve been trying to take better care of myself which includes socializing the amount I need to be happy. I’d been trying to hang out with my friends that I’d seen weekly before my attempt and have known for years, but every time I’d ask to hang out they’d be “busy” which wasn’t surprising considering summer had just started. It wasn’t until a few weeks ago that my friends had come to me and explained that their parents didn’t want me around them because I attempted. They told me that they didn’t want to make me feel worse than I already had which is why they waited. They’d showed me screenshots of their parents telling them they couldn’t be around me. The worst of it was a screenshot of my best friends mom asking if my bsf had been cutting herself because of me and blaming me for my friends depression. I understand why their parents don’t want me around, but it kinda breaks me knowing that people think so badly of me. I try my best to not let any of my emotions affect other people and I’d die for a strangers happiness. In fact, I hadn’t told anyone about the persistent sexual harassment id dealt with for almost a year because I didn’t wanna ruin anyone’s mood. The last thing I’d wanna do is hurt anyone by being around them, but I have no friends now and it wouldn’t be easy to make new ones considering everyone knows I attempted and I’ve been known as “barbie” and “slut” since the beginning of high school. I’m so sorry if this is an inconvenience to you, but any help would be appreciated. I love you <33