“he is very kind and spoils me with gifts ..”
There is a reason the does that ..its to entice you into a relationship of dominance over another. ( you in this case are the victum that he choses to prey upon).
Wonder if he did that to others unknown to you as well? You are one of many that gets hurt.
Ask yourself WHY he or you don’t find someone your own age?
Him: Because people his own age know what he is like.
So he persues vunerable people.
You: Youthful, vuneralbe , too easy impressed by him ( gifts).
For the cost of a gift to impress he has you on a string for life.
Get far away from him and stick to your own age group until you can handle adult situations with yur safety in mind effectively.
P.S. Real love doesn’t happen until after at the very least 7 months Before jumping into sex.
Anything before that is just LUST, which does not last.
I suggest talking to a counsellor in private.