Thank you so much for trusting us with your situation. It takes courage to tell strangers about this kind of thing. You are very brave.
You are also brave to live in the family you do.
I’m gay, but I’m old.
It’s very important that your safety is assured before you come out to your family. If there a chance they will kick you out of the house, stay in the closet until you are independent.
Finish school. Go to college if you want and are able. Establish yourself as an independent adult, and then come out when their possible rejection can’t impact you as much.
Right now I suggest that you rely heavily on school friends. Be a trustworthy friend, and I hope you find trustworthy friends in return.
I promise it gets better as an out, independent adult. I live completely out, and I have a good life despite the fact my parents disowned me. I have wonderful friends who I’m extremely close to. I have a good job and a nice apartment. Life gets better.
I wish you good luck.