After your death, you find yourself in an other-worldly high court.
You are deemed unworthy of paradise.
The judges explain in an ultimatum that you have three choices:

1. Become a 15-year-old boy in North Carolina, who becomes a major of a newly formed detachment of a volunteer regiment during the American Civil War.
2. Become an unhappy 15-year-old boy in the Bronx in 1951, who lives in a rented apartment and works full-time in a photo lab.
3. Choose to destroy your future soul, your consciousness, and yourself, forever.

If you refuse to make a choice yourself, you will be sent to a type of hell.
What would be your decision or words for the judges, and why?