Forgive me. I don’t normally post emotional questions on here, but I seem to have drifted away from so many friends that I don’t have anyone to talk to in real life. Here beginneth my personal question…

I jealous because my best friend has many other friends. He actually has us ranked on Facebook. I know it shouldn’t matter, but to me it does – I check the rankings every so often to make sure that #2 spot is filled by me (#1 is his ex, who he still loves).

He’s always out with various groups of people. I used to be like that, but now I’ve acquired a very quiet existence with few friends. I recently realized that some of the friends I once had no longer care about me.

Is it wrong for me to want him to have less friends? Is it wrong for me to want him to stop loving his ex (who has treated him horribly in the past)? Is it wrong that I’m mad that he hasn’t asked me how I’m doing for a long time? Is it wrong that I lied when I told him it was okay that he forgot my birthday?

Topics: friends, relationships, people, friendship, loneliness, shadling gets emo