I don’t mind it, and I wouldn’t want it to stop. I’d just like to know if anyone has ideas about what’s going on. In particular, why is the tune sometimes from someone else, and at other times something I’ve never consciously heard before?
My theory is that it is the part of my brain that doesn’t have language. That’s the same part that gets “released” when I dance or play music, or am in “the zone” with whatever activity that takes me there.
It’s interesting to me that when this part of the mind is ascendant, people have a real hard time remembering anything. The other thing I notice is that it doesn’t happen when I’m talking or writing. So I’m pretty sure that use of language either drowns it out, or stops it entirely. The moment I stop “thinking” the music comes back.
I think that the mind has multiple ways of thinking. We are used to the way of thinking and remembering that happens with the use of language. We don’t understand the other kind of thinking, probably because we can’t actually talk about it. It does not have language. It works differently. Maybe some would call it the subconscious.
So I wonder if these tunes are messages from this other part of my brain. Unfortunately, I have no idea how to interpret these messages. Maybe they are about mood. But maybe they are about ideas or problems I’ve been working on.
Anyway, this afternoon’s tune was a classical theme, that I believe was used as the theme for a British television show back in the 70’s. There was one about a ship that we used to watch faithfully, though I can’t remember the name of it. Or it might have been “Eyeless in Gaza,” but my money is on the ship theme.
Do you ever look at yourself as if you were a bug on a slide, and think, ‘how interesting, and yet, so difficult to explain’?