If you have been fat, most people will never see themselves a “skinny” I have always battled my weight. In high school, I was a swimmer, I trained 4–5 hours a day and watched what I ate. I still threw up everyday to keep my shape.(It was a very nice shape if I may say so)Then, I got fat, really fat. Then I had a baby and got fatter!(Like Mammy told Scarlett, “You done had a baby, you ain’t never gonna se 18 inches again”. Of course, She was complaining about be fat with a 20 inch waist!!Oh Please!) I am talking I am 5 feet tall and was a size 24. Then, after a while, I decided to get thin. So, I did. I dropped 85 pounds, and hit a size 6. I still did not see my self a “skinny”. I wanted that last 20 lbs to come off.
Never did. I got sick, had 2 surgeries six months apart, gained 28 lbs. and am now fighting to stay a size 12. I was cleaning out my closet the other day, and I found those size sixes, and said I was never that thin was I?? Psycologically, my “fat person eye” never saw the thin body. Just like most people don’t see themselves getting older!
I walk everyday, I live in a 3 story house, with the laundry in the basement, and bedrooms on the 3 floor. I eat fruit all day, I drink sugar free kool-aid because it has zero calories. I can maintain ok. But if I even smell something with chocolate in it, I SWEAR I can gain 2 lbs just from smelling it.
My family has always been “stout”. We were never little fragile people. My grandma always said there are Arabian Horses, and Clydesdales. Guess which ones we are?? Even when I was thin, I was never skinny. Big shoulders, big bottom, but tiny waisted. I hated those days, now I would love them!