@qubozik: I know exactly what you mean. I often get stuck after the beginnings of something new.
When I was younger, things were pretty simple in my world as far as I was concerned, heh, and I didn’t really care about things like whether my compositions were complex or sophisticated or whatever. Now when I try to write music it’s harder for me to be satisfied with what I come up with. My creations seem too simple and rudimentary to me or sometimes even corny (because of their rudimentariness—and yes, that is a word!). I started out just playing by ear on the piano, and after playing in my schools’ orchestras since the fourth grade I’ve developed an ear for orchestral music, which can be really complex. And I love that about a lot of orchestral music, that it can be so beautifully complex and yet sound so effortless. I really love listening to movie soundtracks, for example, as well as your more “classical” examples.
Now, whenever I get an idea for a musical piece I envision full sweeping orchestral arragnements, which I don’t think I currently have the skills/know-how to write at the moment, not at the level I’d like to be at eventually. I can “hear” it, but I don’t have the patience to figure it out on paper, lol. (I guess this is the “creative” part.) I wrote one piece that I actually finished (woo!) and started inputing it into a computer notation software (I currently use Noteworthy, which isn’t exactly the greatest thing on the market, but you know, it’s what I’ve got). I didn’t realize all the musical things I was doing before that—constantly switching between different time signatures and sometimes key signatures, using hemiolas…all those types of theoretical ideas. When I was playing it, I wasn’t actually thinking about those things; I was just writing music. And now suddenly it seems so crazy when it’s on paper! I wouldn’t even have realized I was doing anything like this had I not taken a basic music theory class in high school. Nor would I be able to read music in different clefs outside of the alto that I learned when I picked up the viola.
Sometimes I just feel like there’s so much more I should learn about music, that I don’t know enough.
My problem is that I’ve never had the patience for reading notation on command ‘cause I memorize everything I learn. I’ve been told to try Garage Band (apparently it caters to more sound-oriented folks as opposed to focusing on notation), but it’s not for PC users.
And I’m a PC. : /
BAH! I’m done with the tangent.