Many of you know parts of this story… sorry!
I was sexually abused by an uncle throughout my entire childhood. No one stopped him, no one called the police or kicked him out, or disowned him… nothing.
So, I’m 13 years old and spending my first summer days alone (everyone works) at my grandparent’s house because I’m very sick and my mother works nearby. This uncle drops by for lunch one day and discovers me there. For days, he comes every day and I manage to keep my distance… he doesn’t touch me.
On the third day, he moves ever closer to me, circling me like a bird of prey. He gets ahold of me and tries to tongue kiss me. I struggle and turn my head away and he starts kissing me all over my face. I break free, shoving him away. Shaking with fear and seething with rage, I tell him that if he ever touches me again, I’ll scream rape so fast it’ll make his head spin. I tell him that if I have to, I’ll kill him. He never touched me again.
For the next year, I was certain he was going to kill me. Everywhere I went, I carried a note in my pocket reading “If I am found dead, <his name> killed me.”