@Pol_is_aware – I agree.
At least for myself, indifference is a mask I’ve used at times to protect myself from “failure”. But while it hasn’t reached that gut-level, automatic understanding yet, I’m learning that there is no such thing as “failure”, there are only outcomes and information. Indifference comes for me when I anticipate that I will be overwhelmed by feelings that I don’t like having or when I believe that my expectations will not be met. That’s not to say that there aren’t some things I’m truly indifferent about and it’s OK, like, say, what show is on TV tonight. That’s not what I mean here.
I’ve had a sit with myself recently and wrote out what it is I’ve talked about or have done for hours without being self-conscious or worried about the outcome of my actions even once. There are a few things that I haven’t pursued further because of fear of the risk of “failing” or “rejection”. I’m working on it, though it’s early days yet. And yes, compassion and self-compassion are very important. Long-standing patterns of behavior aren’t going to change if you beat yourself up and judge yourself or otherwise show yourself anything less than the love you would show your dearest friend. If you have your own back and know it, then it’s OK to take a risk and you don’t have to create indifference inside yourself