I’m with @aprilsimnel. If they’ve seen me at my worst, and they still want to be friends, that’s a good start. They also have to want to do things with me, including inviting me to stuff, instead of it always being the other way around.
I think my standards are too high. Or maybe I’m just not outgoing enough. Or maybe I’m just very self-protective. I am afraid that there’s something inside me that somehow is too unacceptable—and I’m also afraid that I ask too much, and expect too much, and…. I don’t know.
Maybe I also put people on a pedestal. There are people here that I’d like to be friends with, but I’m afraid to ask. I feel like I’m friendly, and I’m interested in people, and I care, but it’s still not enough.
I don’t know. I guess maybe it’s not my standards that are at fault, but something more difficult to pin down—serendipity, perhaps? I wish I knew.