I am the opposite. I am more willing to love. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve also grown more confident and finally have learned to love myself. I am far less insecure or afraid of rejection, because I know that who I am, whether within or without a relationship, is stable and strong.
So I second @gailcalled‘s suggestion that you step back from the idea of pursuing relationships to re-examine your priorities, fears, and intentions. This can be done on your own through journalling and reading. But if you feel that your insecurities are dysfuntional, then professional help may be warranted.
Lurve to those who pointed out that the infatuation rush of a new romance can not last… it is the “newness” factor that creates it, and many times, it has nothing to do with true, unconditional love. But with real love, a much deeper bond and attraction develops over time and with trust and communication. It is taking that leap of faith that is often the scariest, as one transitions from butterflies when you get together, to maintaining an attraction when you’re at the stage of leaving the bathroom door open.