Interesting question for me…. Long answer short. No. But it is different then you probably think.
I consider myself gay. I wasn’t always this way, and I am different from every gay guy I know. I considered myself straight until my 22nd birthday. I never had a serious girlfriend, and to be honest girls always have (and still do) frighten me. Every time I had a chance to do anything with a girl, (which happened every so often) I would get scared and run away. Every girl I liked, treated me like dirt.
Anyway, on my birthday I was drinking way more then I should have—and to make a long story a little bit shorter, I ended up going home with this random girl at this bar. I went back to her place, and I was so excited that I wasn’t going to be a virgin anymore I wasn’t prepared for what happened next. Nothing really could have. We were both lying naked in her bed…and she slammed me in the nuts as hard as she could with her fist, and then proceeded to grab them and twist them. I had bruises the next day it places I didn’t think I could get bruises. Since that night, I haven’t chased after any girls. November will be my 26th birthday. Now with guys its a lot easier, I know what they want. I can see what they are thinking, and it is pretty much an easy time getting what I want from them, and vis versa. However, whenever anything serious comes up where a guy actually likes me, I disappear. I’m not an asshole by nature, but when i get scared I am.
My gay friends always say I am straight, and I cannot help but think that maybe I don’t go after girls because I am afraid. That would explain why I can’t take any relationship with a guy seriously. I would love to have a wife… settle down and have kids. I would be faithful, honest, and true. The problem is I am still afraid to talk to girls I think are attractive. I have no problem however picking up guys I think are attractive. I am confident, and I know exactly what to say.
Thats a lot of words so I am just going to stop rambling. :)