I’ve gotta say, i’m a little jealous of your friend, Breanna. I hope someday that I can impact someone else as much as your friend has impacted you. In fact, I hope someone remembers me at all! :)
Honestly, Brenna_o, I don’t think she went to heaven. I never did like that explanation. Really, I don’t think she went anywhere. In my short ignorant experience on this rock we call earth, I’ve learned that everything we know and everything we believe to be true is right up here pointing in our heads. Well, my head specifically, but in your case (i suppose, assuming you’re even a real person and not just a figment of my imagination) it all goes on in your head. And that’s the most important thing really: She’s still here inside you in a very real way.
Your tears tell me that your friend was amazing and a half to you. And it tells me that you’ll never forget her. Every good thing she ever did in her life has impacted yours. The reason you were sad is because you had questions. You’ve asked and now you’re getting answers. Your sadness then, has served an important purpose. But the sadness was caused by her life. And now look.. her life has even made me write this paragraph to you.. notice? She’s still real, still alive, and still a powerful human creature in many ways.. I honestly think she will continue to impact your life positively you get older. In ways you may not even realize until you’re old and gray yourself.
Her death is really just a small small part of her story. In a few years time, you’re going to be able to look back and realize how much of an impact she continues to have on your life and your plans. Good things don’t really go away.. but sometimes they change form. So, I’m going to warn you that if you focus too much on the past, you’ll forget to move forward, you’ll neglect the new her that exists as a direct part of you. So, don’t let all the help that Andi intends to give a bold, confident, forward focused version of yourself go to waste.
Every single memory you have about her were given to you personally by her. So, make sure you’re appreciative. Benefit from her memory, k? That’s the greatest honor we can give to those who mean so much to us.