As a lot of you know my mother died exactly 7 days ago, so I am just doing whatever feels normal.
I spent Turkey Day afternoon with my dad and a few other family members. We didn’t dwell on her death or our grief, but we didn’t shy away from speaking about her. Then I went to my wife’s parents’ house, like I always do. I had asked that my non-mom in-law to ask everyone not to talk about it so everything was normal.
I have no idea what Giftmas will be like. At this point I’m just dealing her with her death, not the fact that I am spending a holiday without her.
This year I am very focused on decorating for the holidays. My mother loved to decorate for X-Mas, and she and I always shopped together for gifts. I think this is my way of feeling close to her and honoring her, in a way. I don’t know. I’m just going with it.