Constant need for reassurance? Check.
Doubting of abilities? Check.
Questions about how others see me? Check.
Need to compare self to others? Check.
Guilt and shame? Check.
Also
Extreme amounts of anxiety.
Certainty that I’m a fuck-up.
Also certain that everyone else is doing [whatever] better than I am and therefore having more fun and being happier.
Unwillingness to try difficult things. Certain that if I do try it, it can’t be difficult.
Certain that everything good will turn bad once it has anything to do with me
More comfortable with fear, pain, and failure than happiness and success.
Ready to sabotage anything that looks like it could succeed.
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But not—
Needing to slam other
Bullying
Defensive
Wow! Not something that it seems worth being. Not that I could stop, of course! ;-) In a way, being insecure is kind of freeing after a while. You can do anything because you know that everyone else knows you’ll find a way to screw it up.