EXCELLENT!! most people i teach have a raging torrent of thought…great job my friend
but in regards to your want for that all the time…it is not only possible it is and enevitability
you do not HAVE TO do anything…it is always a choice…but a choice many people, even the most trained and powerful shamans and gurus, have a unbelievable time making
constancy…is the key…keep doing it..very often…the more and more you do it…the more and more time you spend in that state of existence and non existence…the more our consciousness and spirit are reconditioned to be there…and the easier it is to maintain…
if your work doesn’t WORK then fuck work…just introvert…one can sustain their physical form in this system while still being in this state…with a little effort and vast discipline
responsibility is not a obligation…the word is misunderstood by over half whom use it…break it down…it is the ABILITY to RESPOND…to any situation or circumstance with effective effortless action
Depression…to De-Press…the constant crippling in effective pressure system of society and psychology is one that is aimed toward crushing ones spirit into submission to keep those that build it and manipulate it in power…depression with in healthy cycles…can free one of that pressure…be sure not to fall into a spiral of self pity in your depression..as most do…but rather when being Depressed…use it as DEEP REST…its a play on words yes…but on that through phonetics can retrain the mind to utilizing the power of that state of mind
i sympathize with the lack of energy…but this method of introversion to gain peace, bliss, and more…requires the least energy and is more direct than any other path…
good luck my friend…don’t give up on your spiritual development due to the discouragement of the system your a slave to…
break your shackles…be free