@Shield_of_Achilles ” What am I supposed to be working on?”
Looking back (quite a way back) at myself at 20, and now seeing the same thing to be evident in my own kids and others of a similar age, I am of the belief that the period of life
( late teens – early 20s) tends to be characterised by a sense that one knows enough about life. That one has arrived at adulthood – fully fledged. And that one has (or should have) acquired enough social skills to make life run smoothly and in accord with ones wishes.
Well, repeated knocks against reality as it actually is ( that you don’t know enough) tends to lead to frustration and disappointments. Only time and further experience (and mistakes and setbacks) will correct this. The you of 5 or 10 or more years from now will look back and know just how much you yet had to learn.
Meanwhile, you could try :-
* Being open to well meaning advice from those further down the road.
* Apologising for any clumsy mistakes that you make.
* Accepting that you perhaps don’t know enough ( and like the rest of us, will probably never) yet.
* Understand that you are not expected to be an expert. This alone can be very liberating.
* Relax, laugh and try not to be too serious when out socially. People tend to gravitate towards you if you do and away from you if you are uptight.
The list could go on, but I already see plenty of good advice in the above postings.
Especially from the one of bright footwear!
Finally, well done to you for asking here for help. A very encouraging sign and a good start toward resolving your difficulties.